Welcome
to Lexxii! This is my personal blog with the daily drama, tragedy, secrets, and such that comes with the package of me. I hope you enjoy your stay, ocassionally I'll throw out a short story or article when I need a little break from blogging. I love making new online friends so don't be shy! This isn't the real world so there's no need to be shy around here.
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YouChoob
Hmm, my smilies don't seem to be working so I'll just delete them all. x . x I'll convert them into .GIF format because I think the format of the images may be the case; they're in .PNG format because that's what my Adobe PS CS3 saves it as whenever I save it. I should pay attention more. > >
Today was the first day of school after one week. It was okay, I found ways to avoid Marcus and spent more time with my guy friends than girl friends. So now I feel pretty guilty. Out of the corner of my eye I would sometimes see my best friend Emma sort of glare at me for becoming more like Cidney; as in hanging out with mostly guys than girls, and we know she goes to them because she's talking to us one time and once she sees Criss she stops in midsentence and talks to him instead. She used to be our best friend and now it's just friend. Is it my fault that those guys go to me? I'm not trying to say that in a conceited or braggy way, I'm just saying that those guy friends of mine go to me usually because two of them are my best guy friends and the other just recently started to hangout with our group. I hate feeling like I leave my friends out, it always leaves me feeling like they are probably backstabbing me. ): I'll try my best to hangout with my girls more, but what if my homeboys think I'm leaving them out? *sigh*
I've have been lazier than usual, lately. I haven't even eaten yet and the first thing I do once I come home is turn on the computer. Shoot, I haven't even peed yet. o . O Addicted, much? Yes, MUCH!
I keep forgetting every YouTube account I have. I always end up clicking that damned Forgot Password? link. And then, when I see what username it was I think of a new one and delete it and yeah. Although, I think I'm going to stick with this username for once. I've been YouChoobing (Happyslip for the epic win!) a lot lately because of music. Currently, I'm falling in love with Safetysuit and their song Annie. Previously, I fell in love with David Cook, Fall Out Boy, One Republic, Paramore, and Linkin Park ALL OVER AGAIN; I'm "forced" to listen to the pop radio stations. I don't mind, but their music is all just about sex, drugs, drinking, sex, clubbing, and did I mention sex? Yeah? Okay then, just clearing that up.
by Lexxii. on 05 Apr 2010. 2447 notes.
Nostalgia
I miss my birthplace! I lived there for about 8 years, here for about 5.
I remember my cousin was my caretaker because my tito (uncle in tagalog) didn't want to deal with him since he was so rebellious. Lola (grandmother in tagalog) didn't mind taking care of him for my tito's sake but I guess for some reason my mom took him in, for Lola's sake. I didn't realize how awful he was in real life, I just thought of him as a kuya (big brother in tagalog) who always played with me, washed me, and made my food.
Speaking of food, I just finished eating my Mi Goreng noodles from IndoMie! It's just simple ramen but it tastes awesome! At least, it tasted awesome when that kuya of mine cooked it. When Imade it for myself it tasted like regular ramen. Although, knowing that I used to always ask for this as lunch everyday when I was younger made it taste just the same as before. The mouthfuls of the Mi Goreng was enough for eyes to brim with tears. It was enough for me to remember my kuya. It was enough for me to remember my hometown...
by Lexxii. on 01 Apr 2010. 9 notes.
This Thing, With Pixeling
I remember when I was younger that I followed trends. Some of these trends include clothing and such but I then learned to go my own way; to pave my own path.
An online trend I used to follow was pixeling, I was decent in pixeling really small things because I'm good with details for tiny characters. When I vowed to stop following trends and to just do what I felt that I liked, I switched about every trend I followed back then; this included pixeling. Today, I visited a website with really adorable pixeled emoticons which made me wonder why I stopped making those cute little decorations. Thus this brings me to decision(ish thing) to make Fearing Life a "cute" graphics website. It will have what I used to love doing: pixels, CG's, and embarrassingly girly crap! Why? It was what I loved doing, making girly crap was what I loved doing. I'm not a hater of girly things like these, I actually like it I just don't like the fact that somehow people think that the color pink needs to be in every item. = = Urgh...
Tomorrow, technically today (it's 1:05 AM XP), I am going to change these ugly default smilies into ones that I pixeled earlier. I'll also include these for download once I get Fearing Life up and running. :3 They're blue-eyed flan emoticons! :D How adorkable is that? Very, if I do say so myself! Haha.
by Lexxii. on 30 Mar 2010. 3 notes.
Visitors Are Bad!
Yesterday my step father had two visitors and my mom had one. Visitors are a bad thing, a very bad thing. I really don't like hanging out with people like 20+ years older than me; like seriously, I don't... I've met my mom's visitor before, she was the one who set my mom and step father up in the first place. *ready to flip the finger* > > My step father's visitors are a married couple. He met them from church and just decided to invite them when he came home, giving my mom the burden of having to clean the apartment and cooking food all day long. *whoops, it slipped* = w =
That night, I met my new piano teacher. Yay? No, nay! It is the lady visitor from my step father. She seems like a nice person really, but I get a feeling that we won't exactly have a teacher-student bond during the time she will be teaching me. Usually, I am correct about these kinds of things. I'll try my best to cope with her, for my mother's sake. My mom really wants me to learn how to play the piano. I do too, but not as much as I want to learn how to play the guitar or violin. It's a coincidence that the husband of the couple knows how to play the guitar. My mom thinks he could be the one teaching me how to play but don't you think that it would be asking for too much from them? I think so.
After my sister picked me up from my Sunday school on Saturday (I just love the sound of that, it's pretty ironic :D) she showed me her new hair. It was actually a streak of white hair on a clip so that you could clip it on your head. It was too long for her so she gave it to me. We're thinking about dyeing my hair behind my mom's back. Just two streaks of colored hair behind my ears since I always put my hair in front of my shoulders. That way it won't be too much color and you'll be able to see it. I was thinking about using the color white because I just love the contrast of black and white. <3 I don't know if we'll do it or not, we were just talking about it in my room. She didn't want to be in her own room, because it was nearest to the dining room, which was where all the chatting was happening. > < I hope she does remember about the idea, because I can't do it myself.
by Lexxii. on 28 Mar 2010. 5 notes.
That Bad Old Habit
Yes, it's that time of year. No, it's not Christmas. No, it's not my birthday. No, I'm not going to die. It's spring break!! Isn't it something everyone has been waiting for? At least, for every student in the United States and, I think, Canada it is. I get some time to finally sit my butt down for hours to work on the Phyuri series, this blog, and my resource website! Like I have said in my previous blog, I haven't even made a layout yet. I do have an idea though!
I'm thinking it would have an swirly brushes and possibly a photo manipulation of an eye (yeah, I'm weird like that). It will have a grayscale color scheme but the eye photo manipulation and CSS will be colorful. I have no idea how I'd code it though. Haha, that's going to be the big challenge for me and that fact will probably make me strive to exceed the goal. = w = I've been hating myself for constantly giving up on things and I think it's time to change that bad old habit. Maybe this Fearing Life website will give me a nice kickstart to doing so. :)
by Lexxii. on 26 Mar 2010. 3 notes.